I explore the passing of time through self reflection and insecurities. As humans, we need love or have the tendency to want to be loved and since we are not able to receive it due to the current surroundings, We can only pass time in what feels to be alone. Inspired heavily by Nam June Paik’s “Tv Buddha” and Zhang Peili “Uncertain Pleasures II” my film focuses on being alone with your inner insecurities, through self surveillance. Through real time feedback of my own self projection of a large format television, each scene I perform the discomforts of being alone with our own insecurities as well as representing them through repetitive white noise, which is also symbolic of having a crowded mind, and being a slave to ourselves. I further represent insecurities with everyday narcissist actions such as selfies and the use of phone flashes to highlight society's insecurities to constantly present themselves differently on social media than who they are. Moreover, my concept was derived from mental health issues society may experience during the Covid-19 lockdowns, as they lack human interactions.This is why the choice of filming in my pajamas was to strengthen the idea of being too comfortable as it transforms into a discomfort. Furthermore, my choice of my coloured look was inspired by the film “Donnie Darko” where it is used to represent the protagonist's schizophrenic attitude and mental struggles. Moreover, my repetition of strobe lighting and cross cuts is used to highlight the effects of being alone, and the damage it has upon our own psyches. 


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